I tried and I failed.

So, this last Tuesday I decided to take the night train up to Gävle to see if me and my ex could work things through. We had talked online for a good many hours about it and decided to try it once more. So the week started out great, it was so good to see her again and I thought things could work out between us this time. She was happy, I was happy. The last two days though, not so much.. She basically said that she wanted me to go home and didn't want to be in a relationship with me anymore. I personally can't figure out what happened, but something must have, because people just don't up and change how they feel over night. So now I'm sitting here in Gävle, in her room, in complete silence... And I hate it. I feel like shit and I'm supposed to sit on a train home tomorrow. I feel like I'm going to throw up constantly. Like a huge boulder is in my stomach, dying to get out.

Anyway, I really thought it would work out this time, and I've changed for her.. But apparantly things "don't feel like they used to". She says there's nothing I can do about it and she doesn't want to be with me. Which isn't at all what I wanted. I really love her! Otherwise I wouldn't have taken a 10 hour train ride (I hate riding trains!) to see her. Before, I couldn't even do something simple as riding the bus with her (I hate riding buses as well). But this time, I went with her to her school, just to show her that I've changed.. That I'm willing to do things I wouldn't do before. I'd do anything for her, I really would.. But.. It's not like you can force someone to love you. But hey, at least I tried.

New site!

So, I've decided to make another site for showing off and trying to sell som of my photographic works. Since I'm broke as shit, I figured I might as well try, even if I doubt anything will ever come of it.

Anyway, here it is! Jopphotography. Check it!