Since the last time I wrote here, there's been a lot going on in my life. Kind of. The reason for this abscense is mainly due to me not having dealt with the breakup of me and my ex girlfriend. Even though I said I was over, I wasn't. I just didn't feel like writing anything, because anything I could write about has already been written. With that said, now I really am over her. I am over her, but not it, because I'm still really hurt by the way she treated me. And I still really miss her kids sometimes. Though from what I hear, they're all doing great, so I'm happy for them. And I'm happy with my own life and myself as well.
So what I have been up to? Well, the usual I guess, playing games, sitting around, studying math and hanging with friends. On top of that, a while ago I was introduced to a group of people on Skype through a friend of mine. For a while, this group of people were really awesome, and I looked forward to talking to them every day, which we did. We all worked really good together and it was fun. Not too long after that, everything started going to shit, and I guess partly due to me doing what I did.
Among this little group, there was one person who I got a strange attraction to. We got along really well and had an easy time talking about pretty much anything, which we did. This lead to us feeling really comfortable with each other and joking about stuff. One thing we used to joke about was how we could have sex and kiss and how much we loved each other and such. But because I was in a relationship with the person who introduced me to the group, it was questioned by another certain person in the group. To which I answered something along the lines of "Well, what she doesn't know won't hurt her". This, at the time, was of course all jokes. But it sure as hell was not appreciated by my then girlfriend. Which I fully understand, and I shouldn't have acted the way I did, even if it were all jokes and fun.
During this time I was together with the friend who introduced me to the group on Skype. Me and her had been seeing each other occaisonally for a while and we decided to be a couple. A decision that was poorly made on both our parts, I think. Sure, I had feelings for her, but I guess they weren't what I thought they were. Only about two or three weeks into that relationship, we talked about it and came to the conclusion that we weren't actually in love with each other and decided to end it. This was true for me the whole time, but I'm not sure it was for her. I wouldn't even count it as a real relationship, because it sure didn't feel like it.
After all of that, me and the person whom I connected really well with got much closer. We started talking on Skype in private, away from the group. And this in turn led to jealousy (I think) from the person who I referred to as "this certain person". A while after that, me and Johanna (the one I got close to) decided that we would meet in real life. So, upon learning this, the jealous person and my I guess ex-girlfriend (even though I don't count her as one) started conspiring against both me and Johanna. They actively tried to ruin our relationship, going behind our backs and more or less making stuff up about me to scare Johanna off from meeting me.
Anyway, all of this has lead to me not talking to either my friend, nor the group on Skype. What I have walked with though, is a new love. In case it wasn't blatantly obvious, it's Johanna, who is now my girlfriend. And the main reason for me feeling generally happy again.
So, while it sucks that some people are so selfish that they want to ruin other peoples' lives, I really don't want anything to do with people that are like that. Still, it's a shame things turned out the way they did. But I'm happy, I've met someone I've fallen in love with, and someone that loves being with me as much as I love being with her. So in the end, it's all good.
Until next time, have a good one!
